Harmful or confusing experiences with religious institutions or people may leave you feeling wounded, triggered, or even traumatized. You can resolve and heal from these experiences. Being taught you can’t trust yourself, and experiencing guilt, shame, and judgment are just some of the ways you may have experienced adverse religious experiences.
If you would like to explore whether you have experienced some level of religious trauma, you can start with this Adverse Religious Experiences Questionnaire: https://www.sanctuaryic.org/blog//adverse-religious-experiences (scroll down a tiny bit on their and you will see the Questionnaire).
If you'd like to understand how the messages you received about God have impacted you, why they still bother you, and what you can do about it then take this quiz What Was Your Attachment Style to God?